Yesterday I was talking about Instagram with a friend of mine. We were bantering back and forth about all the temptation they faced on Instagram because of all the attractive people and how perfect everyone’s lives looked online. Or as I like to say the way everyone’s lives appear. Brad Paisley said it best, everyone is so much cooler online. Nothing is truly ever as it seems. I get it though, I find myself not wanting to post pictures or “selfies” online because honestly Instagram is full of gorgeous girls, when you can look at a 10 or 12 why would anyone care to see a solid 6? Yet again, social media is all about appearances. We shouldn’t have to edit ourselves or our lives just to keep up with superficial appearances online. I want my life to mean and be more than the quality of a picture I put on the internet.
I mean let’s face it, I am no Instagram model. I am a goofy, fun-loving, speak my mind, woman who longs to be the salt of the earth. I wear ridiculous slippers and generally could care less what anyone else thinks of me. Throughout the seasons of my life, I have never really cared if my clothes were cool or if I had the most in style shoes. I have always kind of marched to the beat of my own drum. If I had to describe myself I think I would say I am more on the eclectic side. I have never been afraid to get a wild hair cut or try something new with my makeup. Even if that one time I may have resembled Rumpelstiltskin when I tried to pencil in my eyebrows. Nor have I ever been afraid to speak my opinoin and forge my own path, whether it be the choice to not vaccinate my daughter or simply make alternative decisions when it comes to parenting. For the most part I have never been afraid to be myself and I am pretty proud of who I am. I feel like I am setting a good example for Scarlett. But I will admit, like I am sure a lot of people, I fall into the trap that is social media. I see everyone driving new cars, building new homes wearing the most expensive designer clothing with perfect makeup and eyebrows. Seriously though, why does everyone on Instagram have amazing eyebrows? Sometimes it gets me down about what I have or what I lack. When instead I should be more concerned with what my heart says about me and what my life online says about my relationship with Christ.
Whose adorning let it not be that outward adorning of plaiting the hair, and of wearing of gold, or of putting on of apparel; But let it be the hidden man of the heart, in that which is not corruptible, even the ornament of a meek and quiet spirit, which is in the sight of God of great price.
1 Peter 3:3-4
Every now and then I do get down about the fact that I am not a model or that I do not have a brand new car or a gorgeous farmhouse, I mean I am only human. When in reality I have so much to be thankful for. I have a gorgeous family, a wonderful church family, a beautiful home and a paid off car. My life is wonderful and the Lord continues to provide for me and my family and meet our needs. The Lord is faithful to me and my family because we are faithful to Him. He doesn’t care that I am not the most gorgeous woman or that I am not the world’s best mother. What He does care about though is my heart and what my life says about Him. He cares about the impact my heart has on others and what my mouth says and my hands write about who He is and the example I am giving to others about Him. That is my duty as a Christian woman to make sure my life is a reflection of Christ on earth.
If my life isn’t screaming about Jesus on a daily basis then am I really even making the proper impact? I would rather be poor here on earth and have all of my riches built up in heaven. Heaven is where I am going to spend eternity, I didn’t come into this earth with anything and I surely can’t take anything with me when I leave either. My only worry should be how my life here reflects my future in heaven. I long every day to be the salt of the earth and to have the Lord’s light shining through me every day. I don’t want people to say, “wow she’s beautiful!” I instead want people to say, “Wow she has such heart for the Lord.” Why should I care about being a 10 or 12 on the OUTSIDE? How superficial is that really? I am saddened that even crosses my mind at all. Beauty is of the flesh and while I am human I do not want the desires of the flesh to be what my life is about. Personally, I would rather my HEART be a solid 10 rather than my body or anything else that is of this world.
Why should it matter that I prefer to eat pancakes and bacon on daily basis rather than a kale smoothie or that awesome new vegan diet? Can we just take a second to appreciate a nice fluffy pancake…My belly isn’t perfectly flat but it and my soul much prefer a pancake over the tasteless green goop that is a kale and quinoa smoothie, but hey if you prefer the smoothie that’s okay too! It is all about doing what is best for you. As a mother I want to lead my daughter by my example. I want Scarlett to NEVER be afraid to be who she is or to shout about Jesus with her life. By leading my life in a soulful direction my only hope is that I can scream about Jesus through my everyday walk. My hope is that as my daughter grows up she knows Jesus not only by what I tell her about Him, but by what my life shows her about Him. I want her to see my hands being the hands of Jesus, my feet being His feet and my heart having the desire to match His. I am nowhere near a perfect person or Christian, I fall all the time and depend on the Lord to pick me back up. My humanly desires and the desires of the flesh are just one of the many ways I struggle as a Christian, but at the end of the day I know where I truly want my heart’s desire to be. I also know that if I have a strong conviction in my heart to live a life of devotion to the Lord and what He would have me do, my life will reflect that desire. My only hope in this life is to be a shining light to those who don’t know Jesus. And maybe one day through me someone can see the beauty of Christ and all that He has done for all of us. Jesus loves us all, even in our imperfections. In fact He loved us so much that He laid down His life here on earth so that we all may live eternally in heaven and though our flesh may perish our souls never will. Don’t be afraid to be the person the Lord created you to be and never be afraid to let your earthly life shout for the Lord even if it may not get you a thousand likes or followers on Instagram because most of the time the right thing isn’t the most popular. The path less traveled leads to the greatest reward.
For he that soweth to his flesh shall of the flesh reap corruption; but he that soweth to the Spirit shall of the Spirit reap life everlasting.